It was obvious I was lost in translation on this
path of finding my purpose. I spent years trying to search for what fulfilled
my soul but I was clueless. I needed something to reignite my fire. What was I
missing? Uhm....it dawned on me, I was
missing passion.
If
I could retrace my steps, I lost my passion at the end of
2006 while stationed in South Carolina. A series of negative things kept happening
in my life and consequently South Carolina became my arch nemesis. I truly
wonder why I chose such an isolated place away from all the people & things
I loved.
When I finally finished my 9yrs of military service
I was left with the decision to leave or stay. Honestly, I wanted to run as far
away from here as I could but I was hurting. I needed a fresh start but I
didn't believe this would be the place of my new beginnings. However, God's plans for my life was greater than I
could imagine.
So, the journey started as the walls came tumbling
down brick by brick each layer exposed a deeper part of my pain. I was left
naked with the pure ugliness of who I became over the last several years.
While I kicked and screamed my way through the
journey I became tired of the misery. I was tired of the circle of insanity and
often begged the Lord to let me leave South Carolina. I was angry; I wanted God
to tell me why I was here. But I had no idea that all the misfortunes were just
preparing me for my purpose. I was challenged to romance the stones in my life
and change them into diamonds.
It's funny; as much as I wanted to leave God used
this place of transition as a place for me to become whole. Whatever, I thought
I was looking for found me. And as I continue to heal I am feeling more alive
everyday embracing the passion that sets my soul on fire!